weak, speechless.

i never knew that im soooo weak like this. never before i felt this way- mixed feelings? hah. funny. why? idk. something went across my mind saying that- 'hey, prolly ure jelous?' yada yadaaaa~ wtv it is. i believe im strong enough to face this* fake smile(:* like i've always said, 'senyum senyum selalu'- i hope so. i guess im thinking too much. im still trying to get rid of this. i know im strong! :D oh, i hate you for doing that. you disheartened me :'(  bodoh sungguh kau ye, suka mengorat~

can i have a brother like you? im sure it'll be more fun and i would'nt be so sad & weak like i am now- cos i know there's someone i could talk to. youre so caring, youre fun to be with, you like to joke around. oh- :( dream on syazzy!