Dear Diary,
First of all- is my eyes big? O.O hahaha! for today's post, I will be filling up the space for quite a long one since I did'nt update a proper one for the past few days. I guess? haha. I will start about last Saturday's night(D&D) till yesterday. So, ready? (:
Last Saturday, I didn't go for training :\ sighs* That night, was a boring outing/dinner day ever with lovely fellow mates. Seriously. I really thought that the dinner was somehow will be very fun and an exciting one since we've been there once. &its was like, two years ago? hah. I thought that its gona be the same thing where there'll be lots of NICE foods, different kinds of drink and all of them were teenagers(only a few adults). Haha, I didn't expect that we're the only one- teenagers whereby the majority of them were Adults/Old man. ;O Really. In fact, I find it funny and weird too. I guess we're the youngest amongst most of them. haha. Apart from the activities/ songs/ games/ talkings/ speech/ dinner/ lucky draw/ taking pictures, I like the buffet most! like duhhh* who doesn't like EATING free flow food? haha! oh- I went for second round! heheh ^^ Next was the lucky draw. I had this instict, telling me that table number 11(which was our table) will win the lucky draw.. haha. So i kept saying to Miera Kay this, "table 11 WILL win punyaa, tgk jeh.." She giggled. The third time, the emcee announced, "oh, its a two digit number again! and its number....... eleven!" Seriously, we like excited gila. We shouted, screamed, laughed out loud and the rest was like... clap aje =.= hah, pathetic. So we went off around 9+ when games are going on. Bus-ed home.
Sunday was our game with RECS. Then off to Tampines Stadium to watch Danish's tournament. So good they got FREE soccer boot eventho they got Third-3rd. Lawa pulak tuh. Haha. Pssst, know what? that day, Dad told me to on the car engine first while he go for prayer then fetch mum and brother(s). After that I went in and on the radio. The car was quite far.
Then, I have this sudden urge to drive the car to wher mum was waiting. Serious! So, slowly, I move the gear to D (DRIVE) but before that stepped on the brake paddle first- safety. after that open the side mirrors and hold the steering. looked right left and right again....... gently stepped on the acceleration paddle[idk]. the car moves forward. I was smiling widely. hahaha then........... my bro came =.=' yea wtf. Quickly I stepped on the brake paddle and move the gear up to P (PARKING). hahah. I cannot wait to take lisence! (quite lots of things had Dad tought me, thats why)
Monday, went for training. A very very light one. Only planned for BBQ- BestF and I decided to do egg sandwich. oh, ther's games too. At the end of the day, we did a v short and fast fitness. FUN tho :D
Tuesday, went out with ex-kranjians. sadly, not all turn up. Mey had gastrics. the rest? not sure o.O'
we bowled- played for two games. total cost was $72. thx eh =.= After that ate Ananas then to NTUC. That night I slept over Mey's house as you can see the previous-previous post. Had fun laughing and somehow 'cooking' in the kitchen n taking funny pictures with Mey &Betty. I didn't realised what time I was asleep. haha.
Wednesday, MADU's coming homeeeeeee[: so eager to meet him tomorrow to do homework together. oh, its BBQ day! it was AWESOME! like how MADU say, "AWE to the SOME- AWESOME!" hahah. love you! (: now i know, being a facilitator for group three / any group in future isn't easy. idc! most important thing is to enjoy and gain experience.
this is my blog, this is my say. no hard feelings to those out there. cos this is where i express my feelings &thoughts.
it seems that i still can't get over this. why? :'( i don't know how to express it here. what i can only say is- it sucks; to the core. wtf. you might see me strong outside but im weak and its killing me inside. thers another reason why i left. i give in- cos you made her fall for you. i don't want to have another party having such feelings on you while we're still together. im nt tht type of girl who'll fight fr guys eventho i love him so much. no. im big and matured enough to decide what shall n must i do. i think far, for the future- mine and yours. i just want you to be happy k, and thats what true love meant. i treated you so badly and ive hurt you. but im doing this cos i want you to be with her. i want you to make her happy.but you said you dont want and will wait fr me. i dont trust you. its impossible. that isnt a promise or wtv to please me with. she cried a lot cos of you can't get over me. she's jelous and she proves it. but you, you're blind enough to see those! . she had conflict with you, and all cos of me. me you know! i hate it. i left, cos i know, i can't love you the way she does. she almost gave up, but im trying help her. thats why i give in for her. now, your officially hers. i hope you got evrything you want from me from yr bby(: am sure she'll make you thrice happier than how i treat you. im sorry, your name still lingers in my mind. your too good. there's no more you and me anymore. im closing up my heart, not gona see me cry no more. last long best friend and comelstuff(':