LIFE, i enjoy it now..

i don't know what or how im suppose to explain this to you fully in detail why ive *e*t you. all i ever wanted to say was- "its difficult, i can't be with you anymore..". im sorry :( thats all. i just hope you understand. don't ever ask me anything again. i can't tolerate those questions you asked. im happy with what i am/have right now. if you wait, i guess you're just wasting your time. as ive said, i cant have any r/s anymore. please, get that in your mind! we can't even secretly be together. do you call that a lie? yes right? haish* its ugh.. nvm. i must tell you that you're too good for me. i don't want you to suffer no more eventho you don't feel like you're suffering. you're happy but i aint. forget me. don't put hopes on me, cos im afraid you'll hate me forever.. i really really hope you'll understand. i want you as my Best Boy FRIEND. :'(