i'll be your best friend(:

when i was on my way there, to watch your game, my heart pulpitates tremendously. i don't know why. its hard to describe the feeling here. then, i saw you. maybe you're looking at me, im not sure. i was speechless and no mood then. i thought of running away from you& go back home. but i realized its stupid doing that. so, i just go on walking with mey and passed by you. And eventually i managed to hold my tears and said hi to you and your friends who looked at me like one kind? .. i can't do anything, its up to them what they want to say. i just have to respect their comment & they're my friends. you were smoking when i passed by you. you smiled too. am glad yea, thanks. the warren did'nt came while you guys were waiting for him- for like more than 30mins? so, you went somewhere and came back wearing black hairband on your head. you're so cute and handsome! i wanted to go to you and said "you're cute!" and pinched your flex cheek, but i know it'll be embarassing for me. &of course you'll be shocked. so i just kept it to myself and let you have fun with your friends while i just secretly watched you juggling/heading/wtv- with the ball. you laughed, you smiled, you had fun. im happy to see that. i hope you're overcoming this well. 5 mins later, the warren still did not appear- so they decided to go concord then. since the field gate was open till 7- i guess? while walking, i saw this particular girl. well, she's preety tho. she puts on makeup and wore nike shoes and wore sexy clothes, which was pretty beautiful and suites her well enough. i thought she was your friends gf or somebody else. i ignored. they started playing and unfortunately your team lost to phoenix knight, again. after having three games with them, your team still lose to the same team- for the third time. but nvm, at least your team still bonds together. im proud and envy guys. they're so close to each other eventhough some of them went to different school and some of them were not close to them, get what i meant? hmm, thats why i like to be friends with guys. girls? depends. you guys lose to phoenix knight by how many idk. while you were playing, your best friend came to me with his irritating and annoying voice, "hey apple!" yea. i don't mind. i asked him who were the girl in black? now then i know it was the girl you msged before and made me mad before. ok, sooo, i was'nt jelous. maybe? (who am i to be jelous anymore? ugh!) hmm.. when you came out of the field n got yourself changed, i looked at you. and eventually, you looked at me too. i was sooo happy, hah. weird. i smiled at you, and it happens that you smiled at me back. widely. yea, im happy. your my best friend boy, of course im happy that you still manage to smile widely. i hope this happens everytime when im nt with you or when we coincidentally bump into each other. i just hope you're fine out there. about 10mins later, you wanted to go home. you shook hands with everybody surround me, and lastly- you approached and shooked my hands too, and pull me to one side. i was about to cry but i just tahan. i think my face were red.. (?) you asked me if im ok. yes of course i am, (maybe) you asked again if i was jelous about the girl. i said no, for what? so ok.. then he continued with some other stufss, i dont remember. the only thing i remembered was- do you missed me? i was stunned and speechless. so i just kept quiet.. you left and gave your sweetest smile to me. i knew you're gona say something before you left. but nvm.. i cried when you left. i was so touched when you asked me that simple but hard question. im sorry.. i was right. you texted me that youre gona say something. hmm, why don't you say it then? you thought i won't like it. but you would'nt know. hmm- well, i cldnt say much. have fun out there. take care of yourself yeah(: i miss you too. ;'\
"hey pear! thx for keeping the secret ok!(:"
i hope MK is getting better now. hahah. go see her blog! :D